Time seems to be evading me lately! I'm shipped off to college and "living on my own" and all that shit. My roommate, as I've previously fangirled about, is awesome. She's super rad and we've been having a lot of fun doing everything together. It's been me, Emily, and Codie. I've met so many fucking people!! I meet people everywhere, and it's a lot of fun. First night, we went to the hookah bar, and it was fuckin' epic. The hookah bar is filled with black lights, and they hand out highlighters so you can draw on yourself and your friends and glow. The hookah was pretty fantastic, and because there were -thirteen- of us, we had four hookahs, and four flavors. Before hookah-ing, we tried to find food, but it being Sunday, we had to go to three different places (on foot, phew) to finally find a place open. (It was Thai, and it was pretty tasty. There were kitties around the porch~)

Since then, we've just been doing stuff, junk, and more shit, haha. Emily and I have bought some furniture--a coffee table--and plates--Corell, they'll last forever!!--and we've moved in our fridge (which is wood-finished and retro), and we have the TV set up, and everyone who walks in our room says, "It's so... homey!" and proceeds to complain about how plain and empty their rooms are. :D Which makes me and Em feel awesome. We love having a room that people like to be in.

The beds aren't very comfy, but I bought some egg crate, and that makes it more tolerable. I have my actual desktop set up and shit, but I'm still bumming around on my laptop, lol. Once school starts, I imagine my lappy will pretty much be for school work, and I'll go back to using my desktop (yay, it's not being usurped anymore!--not that I minded, Codie <3) for roleplaying, chatting, and gaming. Aside from that, I managed to fit all my anime into a managable space, we've already watched The Cat Returns, a sewing instructional VHS (HOLY JEBUS, EM HAS A SERGER), and Anastasia (again, on VHS; Em brought a VCR). I managed to drop the fucking XBOX the first night when we stayed at a hotel (before move-in), but it's perfectly fine, thank Eris. So Codie wowed some friends that were around by playing Portal for them, haha.

The dolls made it just fine. :3 I'm excited to have all this ME space to do shit with them in, and that Emily isn't weirded out by them. I found a little gift for Tan, Bladey, but I can't decide if I should add something to it or not. Write on my Wall or send me a message or just comment here for details. <3 I found said gift in a thrift store--one of tons in the "downtown square," which is actually just a walk from West Hall (my dorm hall). I also bought some wonderful antique jewelry, including a beautiful cameo pin. Codie pointed out a cool thrift shop called "Time Bandits" (as if that wasn't cool enough!!), and we went inside and found some cheap dresses that we're going to modify. Emily's a fashion design major, so we're hopping to do sew-y things.

Speaking of sew-y things: I have tickets to Anime Fest for me, Emily, and Codie all, so it'll be awesome to go. I'm excited!! I'll have to look up doll meets and shit--not that I really care. Running into other BJD owners is usually more fun.

But that's all I have to say for now--and it is quite a bit, for those of you who haven't caught me lately ;3--because I'm TIRED, and I -should- get up at 9:30 and go to a discussion session over The Bean Trees. Fabulous.

Trying to keep this updated, as I have zero time with all kinds of things to be done!! (Once school starts, I'll probably be on AIM more often!)

Just a quick update to warn everyone that doesn't know already that I'm heading to Austin today! I'll be flyin' out in a couple hours, and I'm excited! I haven't flown on a plane in TOO DAMN LONG. I like flying, personally.

I can't wait to see this exhibit Fran wants to show me, and I'm excited to see Lauren, the girl that was going to be my roommate, but she, unfortunately, is going to UT instead of UNT. D: Boo.

P.S. I check my Facebook more often than LJ. You can find me as 'Kate Gale,' North Texas '12, Lubbock, TX. HOOK IT UP, FOOLS.

For once, I had an interesting fourth of July! Never, in my entire life, have I lit off fireworks for the fourth. And this year, I finally got to!! It was fun. We bought, like, $50 worth of fireworks from one of the many fireworks stands in Lubbock, and then we went out to Brandon's dad's house (on a huge plot of grass-less land) and lit off a bunch of bottle rockets and roman candles and, my favorite, small bees, hahaha. They were adorable!! You lit them and threw them, and if they landed upright, they'd shoot off into the air with a shot of green and a pleasant 'whizz!'

We were only out there for a couple hours before we came back into Lubbock and Codie and Brandon played music for a while, giving me a chance to chat with my roommate about fun "translated" Indian music on Youtube, Food Network personalities, and such, as well as watch an episode of the new Hellsing with James (which was AWESOME, epic, full of win, etc, etc, and literally left us feeling a bit, genuinely, freaked out).

Codie, B and I decided to watch Casino Royale, which Codie and I hadn't seen, and it was the first Bond movie I've ever watched. (Sad, I know!) Left me wanting to watch more Bond movies!! And it had some of my favorite elements in a movie: gambling and action. The whole romantic bit was crap, and the ending was a BIT weak, but the "Bond. James Bond." line with Bond carrying a huge gun was pretty awesome, so I wasn't completely displeased with the ending.

Codie and I also went and saw Hancock last night, and it was SURPRISINGLY great! They advertised the movie so well, setting it up as just some semi-ridiculous film about an atypical superhuman/superhero, and the movie delivered that, and a whole lot more. The effects weren't too over the top, and the story was just fantastic. Anyone who likes comic book movies and/or action movies and/or Will Smith movies will not be disappointed! I enjoyed it a lot. (And I tend to like comic book movies, action movies, and Will Smith movies, but I still wasn't expecting to enjoy it -that- much!)

Now I'm wondering if I should go to sleep or not... >_> Hmmm. Tempting to stay up. Perhaps not too much later, though.

HOLY SHIT, I'M SO EXCITED.

So, today I got an e-mail that said, "Hey, looks like we're gonna be roommates!" from a girl named Emily. I was like, "cool, cool.... *STALKSONFACEBOOK*", and I found out that she likes Miyazaki films, so I was like, "awesome! a semi-anime person~!" and I snagged her AIM screen name. We started chatting, and it turns out she's an open anime kohai (weird termination on my part; kohai = "underclassmen"; my friendly little nickname for people who I like who know less about anime than me and who I can instruct in the ways of the otaku <3), and she's totally psyched about going to anime conventions with me, SHE LIKES MY DOLLS (*phew!!*), andddd... she a fashion design major. ;w;

OMG, I HAVE SOMEONE TO HELP ME WITH MY SEMI-ALRIGHT SEWING SKILLSSSS!!

Augh, you guys have no idea how freaking excited I am. School can't come soon enough, now! (Plus, she's bringing the mini-fridge! Hells yeah.)

Orientation is on July 20-22, so that'll be fun! Codie and I are going to different sessions because of some scheduling fucktardedness, but we're also pleased because it'll give us a chance to really meet new people and break out of our shells. :3 So, cool! I'm super psyched about college again!! (I was just nervous and worried for a while there.)

Gah, Emily is going to be the coolest freaking roommate ever. We're going to have a BLAST.

Another interesting medical update from yours truly! (Because you know you care.)

Only got about an hour of sleep before I went back to the Heart Center to have my tilt table test. I thought they were going to tilt me BACKWARD, and I was really waiting for it, but they actually just tilted me forward, to about a 55 degree angle or something. Higher than forty-five, lower than ninety. Somewhere in between. So, I was tilted and I was thinking, "Man, I'm tired." And it was a really unnatural angle, so it just felt -strange.- The nurse told me to keep her updated with anything that I felt. I told her when I could feel the blood rushing to my legs... I told her when my feet and hands started to get cold... I told her that my knees and my back hurt because my posture is back and unused to being so straight... And then I told her that my head hurt, and she told me to just relax! So... I closed my eyes, and I said, "Wow, I feel really dizzy with my eyes closed..." and IMMEDIATELY passed out. Next thing I know, three of the nurses are around me, helping me raise my head and asking how I feel. I felt really naseous and started gagging, but as one nurse went to fetch me a trash can, another tilted me back so I was level again, and I felt fine. It was really strange. xD

I passed out after about ten minutes of fighting the urge to pass out. Apparently that quite quick. The nurse at the Heart Center was concerned and had me see my cardiologist immediately, but he gave me the same diagnosis as before, and isn't worried. He says that if I eat three solid meals a day and stay hydrated and gain ten or fifteen pounds, I'll be fine! So, I'll work on that. I started off today--after the doctor's visit--with a fatty meal of hash browns, sausage, and bacon at Denny's, so... that's a start, right?

I also finished David Sedaris's  When You are Engulfed in Flames, a collection of essays, but the largest (and the namesake) being about his quitting smoking in Japan, ironically, almost entirely while smoking. Every time I had a cigarette by myself (without Codie), I would bring out my book and read. The only time I read some of it without smoking was once in bed, and maybe a page at a doctor's office. (Doctor's office visits = lots of time to chat with Mom about anything, which is fun.)

I'm looking forward to reading another of his books! But I think next on my list is a biography I bought over the "last emperor" in Japan, Hirohito. I'm quite excited to start reading it!

Now, perhaps some sleep...

I got my official acceptance letter from UNT in the mail today! :D Hoorah~! They sent me some slightly different information than Codie--including some helpful tips on how to do well in college. >_> Ugh, I have a feeling this "deferred" bullshit is going to follow me...

SHIT! I just realized. It's Sunday. I don't have my phone right now, and I TOTALLY FORGOT TO TELL BLADE TO GET ELBY'S EYES ;_;

Dammittttt. T___T I made a huge deal for nothing. xDD

Ah, well. Back to rotting. *reads yaoi manga and watches Food Network*

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY tomorrow, MEGGIE-KINS!!

Man, I was super dead yesterday. I didn't sleep all night--aside from a "nap" for about three hours when I tried to go to sleep at the proper time--so I ended up staying up all night until my appointment. I went to the doctor and found out that I'm healthy. :D Although there IS something wrong with my blood pressure/pulse that's causing my dizzy/fainting spells. I have "hypertension," although it's really... hypotension. There's like a ten-point difference between my laying-down blood pressure/pulse and my standing up blood pressure/pulse.

However, I'm not diabetic. :D Thank god.

I felt like such an idiot right before the exam. xD; I was supposed to strip down and put on the little paper gown, and do something with "the blanket" I was given. I was like, "..wtf? do I sit on it? do I put it over my lap? ...." So... I sat on it. xDDD And the nurse had to get another one to put over my legs when they did the actual exam. xDD *dumbdumbdumb*

They took blood yesterday, so that, plus having not eaten all day, I was woozy and not all there... Went grocery shopping and picked up WAY too much produce. xDD Then came home and promptly fell asleep (after eating).

Now, it's ten AM and Mr. Vanderpool is actually at school--he wasn't yesterday--so I'm headed up there to get my fucking letter of recommendation. Goddamn. Ready for this to be over.

More doll eye wank. >_> I've finally looked at the Volks USA site, and they have images of all their eyes, so I've got a definite idea of what they have... Still don't know what color to put in Elby, though. xD


I know, I know, I'm spamming my journal with this crap, but... help? Please? xDD Thanks for everyone who takes a look. <3

In other news, Mr. V didn't have my letter today (yesterday), so I'm going to get it tomorrow (today) after my doctor's appointment and before picking up my schedule for work and/or turning in my two weeks'. Fun! e_e

EDIT: I found these pictures floating around in my photobucket, and I don't think I ever posted them, but they're hilarious. xDD This was shortly after Enn came home, and I thought a little comparing was in order! WARNING: Not work-safe due to one image of nude dolls. :P I warned you.

Okay, this is going to be a long, STUPID post to anyone who doesn't care about my doll things, so I'll get the interesting bits in here and wank about doll eyes in the cut. xDD Hahaha.

I've gotten a couple chapters into When You Are Engulfed in Flames, and it's MAGNIFICENT!! It's like, laughing-out-loud-while-reading good. I'm enjoying it -so- much. I love David Sedaris, and I don't care who knows it. <3 I definitely need to pick up the rest of his books!! (Or Courtney could loan me audiobooks... ~ ehh? ehhhh??)

I have to go back up to school tomorrow (I don't think I mentioned that in my earlier post), and pick up Mr. V's letter. And I'm getting a haircut tomorrow!! Excitement and joy~! (And I'm also going to a lady doctor for the first time on Wednesday. Oooooohhhhh~ Go me? More like go birth control. <3)

I'm trying to figure out how to get my class ring to say what I want it to. There's no option for my alternative school as an official ring, but they do offer homeschool rings... However, I can't get "Reese Alternative" printed where I want it, so I'm going to go see if there's a jewelry place in town that does this specific high school ring service and see if they're willing to do a custom ring. Hope so. :D

That's it for interesting life crap, now... doll crap.


P.S. Are my pictures too big on everyone else's monitor? I want them to be easy viewing. Are they HUGE? (I have a big monitor on my laptop, and a HUGE one on my desktop, so I have no clue. xD; )

P.P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BLADEYKINS!!! (It's past midnight here, so it's totally your birthday!)

I went up to school today to chat with my school counselor, who I needed a letter of recommendation from. We talked, and he was like, "...Why did you get deferred??" and I explained about my class rank and my GPA and all that other business, and he was like, "That's... wrong. That must be wrong." I was afraid he might be just saying that, but he actually called the main high school and had a chat with the people up there.

Here's what's up: because I went to Reese Alternative High School (sister school to Frenship--not Friendship--High), I graduated on the "minimum" plan because I couldn't take some courses at Reese (i.e. the rest of my foreign language credits, and fine arts credits) because they don't offer them. Reese is a "credit recovery program." So, the fact that they don't offer some courses that kids might need to recover... is bogus.

Anyways--so, I graduated "minimum," instead of "recommended." THEREFORE, I was ranked at the BOTTOM OF THE RANKING. Like, everyone who graduated from Frenship on the "recommended" plan, is ranked first, and then everyone on the "minimum" plan is ranked BELOW them, SEPERATELY.

Get this: I'M AT THE TOP OF MY CLASS! Hahahahaha. I'm number one out of twenty three who graduated on the minimum plan. Hahahaha, awesome, no?

So, with my GPA (3.45) and my average grade (86), had I been on the "recommended" plan? I would have graduated 170-180 out of 345 INSTEAD of my current rank: 311 of 345.

So -there-. Mr. V, my school counselor, said he would say this in his letter to UNT, which is awesome.

As I was leaving, I told Mr. V I would be PROUD to have Reese Alternative High School on my diploma, and that I wanted Reese, NOT FRENSHIP, on my class ring. He was so tickled and pleased with this remark, he had me repeat it to the principal, and she said, "Ohhh, that's sweet! Well, you know, Kate, you're so important to us at Reese." And I felt so heart-warmed!

I also told my other teacher that gave me a letter, Mr. Ashcraft, what I've always thought: he reminds me of my father. He laughed and laughed, and I told him, "If you ever get a chance to talk to Dr. Gale, do so!" and he laughed and said, "Yeah, I'll tell him, 'So about that little girl of your's...' " He's pretty cool, that Mr. Ashcraft. (And he really is so much like my dad.)

As I drove off into the flat plains of Lubbock, back to my house, "All You Need Is Love" by the Beatles came on, and I felt so... -elated-.

I found some old pictures on my camera from an old photoshoot with my dolls back in... ooh, January, probably. I dunno. Sometime during the winter. xD I figured I'd post 'em up. The script for this shoot has been lost in the sands of time, so just... be creative. ;D


Which leads me to my next dilemma/post. Bladey-kins is going to the Volks store, and I looove Chichi's glass Volks eyes, and I figure Elby needs some proper eyes! He hasn't ever had glass eyes. xD; Always acrylic. But... what color? Green gives him a more grounded expression, while blue/grey makes him look more spacey... I don't know which I prefer?

I'd like to take a shoot of Elby in just different eyes. Codie's encouraging the "Desu" aesthetic. >_>

So, if I feel motived, I might do that tonight. Slash... finish poor Enn. xD;; Who's still in pieces under a towel in on my bathroom counter! (Luckily I do have sealant, though!)

Work sucks. Laze moar. D:

No, okay, it's really not that bad. I'm just ready for a nice long break. T__T I'm planning on going to Austin for a week or so maybe next week, maybe in a couple weeks, just to sort of take a break from the house, from Lubbock, from worrying about college, etc... Going to see my Aunt Fran. :3 She's been telling me again and again that I need to come visit her. And I am excited. She's living in an apartment now, and I bet it's modern and lovely. She has good taste in furniture/living quarters! Her house in Louisiana was so pretty!! (Did you ever see it, cousins? I always loved it.) Oh, and she offered me some of her furniture for college. 8D Fuckin' score.

There's a Japanese exhibit at a museum there, which I mentioned, that has Yoshida, my new flame, and Hokusai, the ever-famous flame, so I'm pretty pumped about that, too! And there's the music scene, there's the food, there's just the general -funk- that is Austin! I've never been, so I'm excited.

If I do go, I also hope I'll get to see an old friend of mine! Codie and my friend, Eleni, lives in Austin. Eleni was dating Codie briefly before Codie and I hooked up. |D I um... sort of... uh... stole Codie from her. <3 But man! Come on. They were so not compatible as partners! All they would ever do around other people is fight! It was -obnoxious- more than anything. Hahaha.

Frigggg. I have to leave for work in, like, twenty minutes. This blows. >_< I really, really hope my manager didn't set me up for two parties today. Fuck that. If I have my only scheduled party, I should be home at 2:45. If I have to cover someone else's shift without being told, I'll be home LATE. Fuck that!!

P.S. Note to self: buy cloves of garlic. Make roasted garlic. Repel EVERYONE. <3

I actually got up at a reasonable time today! :D Okay, past when I wanted to, but at a reasonable time. I called up to school, and two of the three people I wanted to do recommendations were there. So, I went up there, got my principal to write me a letter, then while waiting for my other teacher to finish his summer school class, I got my diploma!! My real diploma!! So, now it's official. I'm REALLY graduated from high school. Really.

Going back on Monday to chat with my high school counselor and pick up my other letter from the other teacher who's writing me one. Woo! Hopefully everything will work out. I found out today that I might have been ranked weirdly with my class? As in, I was ranked with last years seniors, not this year's? Not that really matters. I don't think it'll matter WHO I'm compared to with my GPA, I'll probably still be pretty low. >_>

I went to Barnes & Noble yesterday and picked up the new David Sedaris book, When You Are Engulfed in Flames, which I had heard about on The Daily Show. It really drew me in because of the Van Gogh on the front, and the hilarity of the stuff Sedaris said with Jon Stewart. Plus, they just chatted about smoking (quitting smoking, but smoking nonetheless) and Hiroshima, Japan. I was like, "I'M THERE."

After tellin' Mom and Dad about getting a Sedaris book, they told me he wrote articles for the New Yorker, and Dad found one for me. It was called "April & Paris," and it was absolutely hilarious, completely entertaining, and totally interesting. I'm really looking forward to diving into his book!

We also bought Hirohito, a biography about the "last emperor" of Japan and how it affected modern Japan, and Understanding Comics by Scott McCloud which Codie and several of our friends have high opinions of. (And it was on discount, so I said, what the hell!) Oh! And we got this very interesting-sounding book: The Professor and the Madman, which is about the creation of the Oxford English Dictionary. O_o Exxxcellent.

Yeah, yeah, I haven't finished Making Money (Terry Pratchett) or Neverwhere (Neil Gaiman) yet, and I bought Smoke and Mirrors and Fragile Things (both Neil Gaiman) and haven't read them, but... shut up! I need beach reading. >_>;; Already.

*lazes about* Ahhh..... fuck! I have a long ass shift at work tomorrow. >( *lazes hardcore today*

...Meh, I'm supposed to maybe take my car in to have the fuckers that didn't put it back together right fix the bracing that flew off, but I really don't have the motivation. So, unless Codie drags me out of the house, I'll just do it... tomorrow/next week. (Once I've got all my shit together, bleh.)

EDIT: I forgot to mention! I found this marvelous Japanese artist from the 1920s-1930s who did classic Japanese art, but... sort of modernized. It's really, really lovely. I found it from looking at some of the sample art that will be exhibited in Austin (and I'm hoping to go visit my aunt Fran there and see it; she keeps encouraging me to come, if only for the exhibit), and I'm in love with it! The artist is Hiroshi Yoshida. Look him up, punks! They also have some Katsuhiko Hokusai, infamous for his famous "Tsunami" print, so that's tempting, too.

The essay is finished!!

Just one more hoop to jump through...

OH! CONGRATULATIONS AND GOOD LUCK ON THE WEDDING, COURT!!! I wish I could be there!! I expect pictures! If not here, then at the beach!!

(Courtney is my cousin for those of you who don't know, and is really a mermaid. ;3 And getting married tomorrow!!)

Since my rant yesterday about getting deferred, I've looked into the information they've sent me, and it's really a piece of cake. The only problem is that stupid deadline. I've got ten days (I counted wrong earlier xDD) to get those letters of recommendation and my essay finished and turned in. It might be tight, but I have confidence that I can make it!

My essay is easy and it'll be simple as shit to write up a great essay about why I SHOULD have been accepted. I considered writing a rather angry one, but I chose to go for the "humility" path. "It's such a pleasure to be given this opportunity to exemplify why I'm prepared for the challenges of college.... It was poor judgment on my part for not addressing the peculiarity of my transcript earlier." They'll eat that shit up!

Last night I started on my essay, but my mother distracted me. She's in a bit of a slump and wanted to talk about things, and cried about how much she'll miss me... Unsurprising. It sort of wonked up my schedule for finishing my essay, but.... I love my momma. <3 She's also kind of planning on not coming to the beach with us. I just told her that if she won't enjoy herself, she shouldn't go, and it shouldn't be a big deal! She's not inconvienancing anyone, so... no big deal. She's pretty worked up about it, though.

On a lighter note, I cooked dinner last night! We had artichokes and chicken picata (pounded chicken cooked in a butter, white wine, caper, and lemon sauce <3), and it was delicious, and I felt like one of the adults! I had a lot of fun, and Mom didn't have to do any work, so I think she might have liked that.

Today, I didn't manage to call or get over to my school because I got kind of stressed last night, stayed up pretty late, and ended up sleeping all day... Oh well. Codie promised to get me up in time to do shit tomorrow, so that's a relief. So far I haven't touched my essay today, but I'm planning on doing that right now. We took Brandon (future roommate) back to Levelland to see his family and get some of his stuff, and while we were driving through Middle O' Nowhere.... PART OF MY CAR FLEW OFF. Part of the bracing around the windshield fucking flew off because of the wind and the speed we were going! But it's not supposed to do that!! The stupid assholes who replaced my windshield fucked it up! And that's not the only part of my car they fucked up. They also fixed the windows after my car got broken into, and they didn't replace some of the plastic covering on the inside. Rrrghh. So, tomorrow, I think I might also give them an angry call and tell them that they're fucking idiots!!

Thanks to all the people who gave me their support after I heard about getting deferred. :3 You guys (mainly Vicki) rock!! This has been no blow to my confidence. I know I'm better than this, and I know I'm smarter than this! It's their fucking fault for not looking at my SAT scores. Retards.

And, if all else fails, and I don't get my shit together (not going to happen, goddammit), and I still don't get accepted, there is a back-up plan. UNT offered me another course of action: the Deferred Scholars Program. Great name, no? >_> Through this program, I'll attend a community college of my choice, and if I finish twelve hours and keep my GPA above a 2.5 (pfft, please), I'll be immediately enrolled in the spring semester at UNT. AND! I have to live off-campus for this program. Fuckin' score!! So, the back-up plan is almost better than the fore-plan. xDD Hahaha.

I'll keep my journal updated on the situation. (Man, where did I learn to actually talk about my life in a journal on the internet? This never would have happened!)

...Another anomaly in my usual life: I joined Facebook. Godwhy. xDD So, if you have Facebook and haven't already added me and are interested, you can find me under 'Kate Gale.' Location: Lubbock. School: North Texas. (... *weeps* if I'm LUCKY!! ;___; Fucking loser reviewing committee!)

P.S. Insomniac tea is still delicious. That is all.

I got my letter from UNT today about my application!

I GOT FUCKING DEFERRED.

So, that's great.

And it's really all my fault. If I had just taken the fucking time to go to a regular high school and kept my grades up, I wouldn't be having this dilemma. But no. I had to take the quick way out. I had to get out of high school as soon as possible. So I ended up fucking up my GPA and my class rank on the way. I've been thinking about this recently because of all the graduations I've been going to. I fucking -missed out-, and I will never have that opportunity again. I missed out on classes I could have taken, I missed out on friends I could have made, I missed out on so many fucking opportunities that could have made this fucking transition easier. I'm in the BOTTOM twenty percent of my class because of going to alternative school. 311 out of 344! That's fucking pathetic! And my GPA is sitting a big, fat, three-point-something. Five maybe. Whatever. It doesn't fucking matter.

And apparently it doesn't fucking matter that I'm in the top 95% in the NATION on my writing and critical reading scores. Oh, no no no, they don't look at that. What the fuck? My SAT scores, in juxtapose with my class rank and GPA, were fucking PHENOMENAL. I got higher than any of my friends! I got higher than -Codie- and he's a smart motherfucker.

This is seriously disappointing and seriously not the best time. I have nine days to finish ANOTHER essay (on top of the three that I did initially that I ended up not having to turn in), and get three letters of recommendation. THEN they'll individually review my application. The essay doesn't have a huge amount of space to fill, so it's not supposed to be supersuper long, but... it's just the principle of the thing.

School's out for the summer, so... I don't know if I'll be able to fucking get a hold of my teachers so they can write letters of recommendation and shit... I might have to give up and just have some douchebag idiot from the main school write me a letter explaining that I went to stupid-gangster-kid school.

UNT offered me another option: go to community college! (Sorry for all you community college alumni...) FUCK THAT. Excuse me?! The community colleges around here are absolute bullshit. UNT said that if I got so many hours at a community college, I could transfer to UNT without any application process! Oh, great! Thanks for the info on the loophole, you fucking assholes.

If, for whatever reason, I don't get into UNT for this semester (and I'm really scared that I won't), something needs to change. I need to move out, or I need to get a new job, or just a second job... Something needs to happen. I know I'll end up idle and crazy (like Codie, at times) if I don't change something.

It's nice to get to the point in your life when it's alright to be friends with your exes again, and it doesn't hurt anymore, and you remember what great friends they were. :3 (And goddamn, I forgot how much I loved zee buttsex. |D Roleplaying with any of my other lesser roleplayin' buddies even now just seems so boring and tedious. And so few of the Original Great Roleplaying Buddies from The Old Days still have time for good ol' buttsexin's.)

Also, I'm nearly better! :D

Alsoalso, I'm nearly done with Enn! 8D But... I ran out of sealant. D: Once it's reasonable o'clock, aka when the stores open, I'm gonna go pick up some more. xD Hoorah~

Augh, I'm sick as crap!! I'm all feverish and shit, too. This blows. : / I feel like "grown up" me shouldn't get fever, aches, and sore throats! Blegh. So, work yesterday -sucked-. I felt like shit, and I felt like I was dying at work. The party was good, though. None of this no-tip crap. But when I was cleaning up my room, I was just draaaagging along. I thought I might throw up. : /